Monday 22 July 2019

Soft fire


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Composition


As if I knew how to orchestrate
my own death by stretching the lifeline
until it snapped due north of nowhere

all things once dear are lost beyond reach
nothing on offer beyond the pale
reasonable epiphanic truth

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deepbreathing through nightlights and darkdays
chaoscontrolling like a necromancer of the soul
the blooddrops of the hummingsong heartkeys

nothingless pervading the wavespace inbetween neutrinos
to hit the silence, the absolute braincracking silence
to vibrate the music anew

perhaps on a bluemoonday
things will get better enough
to pass the baton
 

Sunday 21 July 2019

How far I've run


Look how far I've run, dad.

You always rehashed how slow I was.
You had spawned the fat kid at the back –
you hated me for that. How much you hated me.
Thirdpersoning me in my face,
setting the table for three
you, mom and sis.

If only you had noticed
the lightness of foot
the startling capacity to swerve.

What you couldn't possibly perceive
was the purpose you were giving me,
the fire you had started inside
and kindled – that rage,
that rage still burns wild, dad.

Look how far I've run
look at all the people who gave up
look now who's still running
look who's left in the dust
panting, their chest burning
by the wayside, defeat in their eyes.

It's you, dad. It's everyone else, dad.

Look, look how far I've run.

For I have never, ever stopped running.
 

Saturday 20 July 2019

Bow to no one


for him ever so humble
that lone rose given
for a lifetime of service
was the greatest gift –
he bowed to the little girl

Friday 19 July 2019

No country for young men


"I'm fed up to the ears with old men dreaming up wars for young men to die in."

George McGovern, historian, author and US senator (1922-2012)

I couldn't trace the quote, even on QuoteInvestigator. Here is, for what it's worth, it's in the Wikiquote.

Thursday 18 July 2019

One evening, three atmospheres




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The best parts


The best part of the day
was walking you home from school.
I was again too scared today
to jump into the pool –
every pupil mocked and riled,
except you who smiled.
You knew all about my woes
and I knew all about yours.

The best part in high school
was when I held your hand awhile.
I told you to stay cool
and made sure no one would rile.
Of course you never knew that:
you’d have hated and loved it.

We always stayed together
till we were called for dinner.

The best part of us through college
is that, though we met less often
because we had taken different subjects
and had fewer friends in common,
we still hung out in malls and called
and wrote letters as in days of old.

Our dads still told us they’d met one another,
And we’d say we’d plans to meet, always later.

The best part starting our new jobs
and had gone each on each coast,
we still emailed our laughs and sobs
and texted – yet started to ghost –
the other's voice lost its familiar sounds
but still we proffered to be best friends.

We weren't worried by time and space,
we had always been outside any race.

Then we had other best parts of days,
we dated and got married and had children,
we gave middle names in lieu of praise
but hushed why we chose these to christen
our kids. We tried to call but the number was void,
and emails straight to spams were destroyed.

Certainly we did dream of one another,
yet at dawn our brains didn't seem to bother.

So when we finally replied to a stray email
we decided to meet in person;
we told and listened to each other's tale
of betrayal, divorce, abortion.
Yet the worse was to come, because cancer
was eating one of us, the other anger.

This wasn't a best part in our life, we thought,
trying to ignore the knot in our throat.

But we were together, nothing else mattered.
We reminisced our best parts,
glued back sounds which had scattered;
and while we opened up our hearts
we sensed we had missed something important,
something which had always remained dormant.

It was meaningless now to resist
so we faced one another and kissed.

Wednesday 17 July 2019

Sciamachy


"There are stars whose radiance is visible on Earth though they have long been extinct. There are people whose brilliance continues to light the world though they are no longer among the living. These lights are particularly bright when the night is dark. They light the way for humankind."

Attributed to Hannah Szenes, Hungarian poet, playwright and paratrooper (1921-1944).

Here's an interesting summary of her life.

Tuesday 16 July 2019

Finders keepers


You’d think he is trying to flatten the entire beach
Swish-swooshing left and right and back like a flat pendulum
Or a fallen longcase clock that would defy gravity

Tirelessly penduluming the length and width and breadth
While the sun finishes his course and the moon begins hers
Only because the ocean deigns wane for a few hours

Only when those powers at bay forcing everyone home
But the odd flâneur with a keen eye for oscillations

— all of a sudden the sweeper stops because the clock clicked
Even though this may have only been his mistaken heart

Going wild over treasures which are both here and not here
But all he wants, really, isn’t finding the lost trinket
But digging the magic buried between the grains of sands.
 

thirty thousand people

The day was torn and grim birds yet began to sing as if they knew nothing’s eternal and old gives way to new that man, one day, will fall t...