Broken

When you implied

it was nice of me 

to disregard my feelings

over yours

– you broke something –

When you said

you had the premonition

we’d meet again

and then said we wouldn’t

– you broke something –

When you said you cared

but stopped paying attention

or asking how I was

or who I was becoming

– you broke something –

Yet you don’t realise this,

as all this is normal for you as

feelings are best read about in books

are what happens to other people

those with much sadder lives

– so you feel safe, don’t you –

Truth is, you broke so many things

you put so much distance between us

that we cannot go back to where we were

and this is probably what you want

because happiness scared you

you felt too young for it

not enough chaos

so you broke

and broke

until

 

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