Tuesday, 12 February 2013
Friday, 8 February 2013
Thursday, 7 February 2013
Wednesday, 6 February 2013
Dead tired
I feel nothing. I
feel nothing.
Hovering in
mid-air without a sound.
I feel nothing.
No earthly grasp.
No bearing.
No beacon to
light nor to follow.
The hem of my
coat unseamed.
Unravelling.
Raving. Reeling.
I feel hollow. I
feel hollow.
Like a coreless
trunk, a bleached coral.
A kite is what I
most resemble now.
A kite in squalls
paused in a painting.
One inch from
toppling down yet not toppling down.
On the brink to.
On the brink to.
And
I am dead tired of it.
I
wish I fell. I wish I fell.
Yes,
I wish that.
Up
to my fingertips stretched out,
My
legs stiff and still, my back, rigid.
The
shadow under me should draw a cross.
It
should.
I
am dead tired of this too.
Wasteland.
All this is a wasteland; I am a wasteland.
I
am like a puppet whose strings used to be attached.
Those
strings were cut.
Yet
this body of mine floats for he remembers.
No,
he can never forget the strings.
What
they did to him.
Those
strings were cut, yet I hover.
I
have never felt more human than now.
Time
has no end, no beginning. Time does not exist.
Time
cannot exist. We live on impressions.
We
live in depressions. We like not the summits,
Where
the sun shines the brightest.
If
I could write my life
I
would be a hate letter away
From
vanishing.
I
am that bone-tired.
My
skeleton made of eggshell glass
Brittler
than a tamarind flake.
Were
my body broken perhaps
I
would feel something.
Humans
are like that, so people say.
None
is beyond oblivion. Nothing is.
None
is shatterproof. Nothing is.
Expecting
our notion of time to yield
Is
expecting a chicken to lay an asteroid:
There
is a billion to one chance.
Pain
and distrust percolate
The
churches, the mosques, the synagogues,
The
banks, the schools, the governments.
I
am between the anvil and the hammer,
And
this is tiring, straining, enraging me to death
Whilst
I hover, paused as on photographs of old,
Sepiaed
by survival,
Worn
thin by unrealised expectation,
In
the still furore of existence,
Unshod,
haggard, halfway to everything,
As
incapable of action as of inaction.
I
am hollow, hollow, hollow.
Tuesday, 5 February 2013
About (The) T/time(s)
"Trying to determine what is going on in the world by reading newspapers is like trying to tell the time by watching the second hand of a clock."
Ben Hecht, screenwriter, playwright, novelist, director, and producer (1894-1964)
Monday, 4 February 2013
Saturday, 2 February 2013
To hell
“Hell, I am young. I am free. My teeth are clean. The sun shines. To hell with everything else.”
Stephen Fry, Making History
Friday, 1 February 2013
Caméra embarquée sur la ligne de front d'Alep
Caméra embarquée sur la ligne de front à Alep par lemondefr
Le reportage de Jérôme Sessini pour le Monde.fr dans l'avenue Dar Al-Ajazi, terrain de chasse des snipers, a obtenu ce vendredi le troisième prix du World press photo, dans la catégorie courtes vidéos Web.
Frying the Self
“If you know someone who’s depressed, please resolve never to ask them why. Depression isn’t a straightforward response to a bad situation; depression just is, like the weather.
Try to understand the blackness, lethargy, hopelessness, and loneliness they’re going through. Be there for them when they come through the other side. It’s hard to be a friend to someone who’s depressed, but it is one of the kindest, noblest, and best things you will ever do.”
“It's not all bad. Heightened self-consciousness, apartness, an inability to join in, physical shame and self-loathing—they are not all bad. Those devils have been my angels. Without them I would never have disappeared into language, literature, the mind, laughter and all the mad intensities that made and unmade me.”
“You are who you are when nobody's watching.”
“Choking with dry tears and raging, raging, raging at the absolute indifference of nature and the world to the death of love, the death of hope and the death of beauty, I remember sitting on the end of my bed, collecting these pills and capsules together and wondering why, why when I felt I had so much to offer, so much love, such outpourings of love and energy to spend on the world, I was incapable of being offered love, giving it or summoning the energy with which I knew I could transform myself and everything around me.”
“There were people who believed their opportunities to live a fulfilled life were hampered by the number of Asians in England, by the existance of a royal family, by the volume of traffic that passed by their house, by the malice of trade unions, by the power of callous employers, by the refusal of the health service to take their condition seriously, by communism, by capitalism, by atheism, by anything, in fact, but their own futile, weak-minded failure to get a fucking grip.”
“People who can change and change again are so much more reliable and happier than those who can’t.”
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