Sunday, 19 February 2023

the rage

– the rage was always strong

more powerful than anything –


the rage made her /kiss/ the boy

and bite his lip and his ear

it also made her /miss/ the joy

of missing his playful sneer


– the rage made her b(l)ind

even when/as he was kind –


the rage was a /comfort/ after love

taking (over) the butterf/lies

her heart /racing/ from above

him boring into her eyes


– the rage (sometimes) fired /down/

/letting/ her chin up against the drown –


the rage powered her emotions

pushed her /over/ (and) beyond

made her curl up without motion

had her reach out /or/ despond


– it made her (feel) love(d) and hate(d)

– she /fuelled/ it lest it abate(d) –


yet she knew that one day

the rage would /depolarise/

– conquer her or fade away –

– what would happen to her

would she shine and rise

or so(m)bre and wither –


the rage – all she had ever known –

l/aid in wait, w(h)ir(r)ing –

watching over the /seed/ sown

– patiently (un)stirring –

trusting /only/ in the soil

to breed /solace/ and turmoil


– the rage /woke up/ into being /one/ night

knowing – she would one /day/ (dis)appear

her deed s(ole)ly to /darken and light/

/everything/ for her to /live/ loud and clear –

(dis)illusioning choice in the hea(r)t of the rage –


– the rage, no/w/t/h/er/e, (f)or n/e/ver –

This is no longer home

On the train back to the old place unsure if any memory is left there Surely there must be an old cigarette burn hissing embers fusing ...